hmmm... in your final days of pregnancy? a healthy, neuro-typical baby boy? lol
funny, how one's ideals change dramatically after a baby arrives.
Please know this. God gave me two VERY DIFFICULT, HIGHLY CHALLENGING boys. But guess what? They're still alive and doing pretty damn well(most of the time, now) and as difficult and soul-crushing as it often was, there have been moments that could never have been replicated in any other way. Incredible, incredible moments and a lot of pain, too, but I can honestly say, that I'd do it all over again, (if I were 20 years younger).
Just stumbled across your Blog and cannot stop reading. My entire world came crashing down on Dec 7 when I found out my husband of 11 years is a sex addict. I've been reading everything I can get my hands on to try and help me not go insane, but half the crap I find is only making it worse. Your Blog, however, is a gem. I love your writing style, love your sense of humor and honesty and I can relate so much to what you went through and were feeling. I am dying to tell you my story, our husbands are so similar and the shit he's done to me will only make your hubby look like a saint. But I love him, and he loves me. He is 100% committed and focused on getting better and saving our marriage but like you, that doesn't make any of my pain and anger go away. I know you must have recently had your baby boy, I am so very happy for you after reading about all of your struggles with infertility and longing for a baby. We have two little girls (3 and 6) so I know life for now is probably all about sleep and survival but I would love to talk to you one day. I honestly don't know what we would do without having been blessed with our girls, they are truly what keep us going as we try to get though this nightmare of my life turning into a bad Lifetime movie....I wish you all the best! :-) Jennifer
I, too am the wife of a SA. I made the terrible discovery in 2009, after 11 yrs of marriage, and I am still as raw as I was the day after I found everything. I have found some consolation in this blog. Mostly, it validates everything I feel. Your post about iPhones really hit home with me. Such a simple thing can cause the wife of a SA so very much stress. I hope you and baby are well. I was pregnant with our 3rd child when I made my discovery. I know some of the struggles you are probably facing now with the new baby. Good luck to you, and I can't wait to read more of your blogs when you can find time to write again.
hmmm... in your final days of pregnancy? a healthy, neuro-typical baby boy? lol
ReplyDeletefunny, how one's ideals change dramatically after a baby arrives.
Please know this. God gave me two VERY DIFFICULT, HIGHLY CHALLENGING boys. But guess what? They're still alive and doing pretty damn well(most of the time, now) and as difficult and soul-crushing as it often was, there have been moments that could never have been replicated in any other way. Incredible, incredible moments and a lot of pain, too, but I can honestly say, that I'd do it all over again, (if I were 20 years younger).
You will find your way...
in time.
all my best L
xo ~ L ;)
sooooooo??? howz it going??? baby sleeping??? Is mom sleeping??? xo ~ L
ReplyDeleteJust stumbled across your Blog and cannot stop reading. My entire world came crashing down on Dec 7 when I found out my husband of 11 years is a sex addict. I've been reading everything I can get my hands on to try and help me not go insane, but half the crap I find is only making it worse. Your Blog, however, is a gem. I love your writing style, love your sense of humor and honesty and I can relate so much to what you went through and were feeling. I am dying to tell you my story, our husbands are so similar and the shit he's done to me will only make your hubby look like a saint. But I love him, and he loves me. He is 100% committed and focused on getting better and saving our marriage but like you, that doesn't make any of my pain and anger go away. I know you must have recently had your baby boy, I am so very happy for you after reading about all of your struggles with infertility and longing for a baby. We have two little girls (3 and 6) so I know life for now is probably all about sleep and survival but I would love to talk to you one day. I honestly don't know what we would do without having been blessed with our girls, they are truly what keep us going as we try to get though this nightmare of my life turning into a bad Lifetime movie....I wish you all the best!
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I, too am the wife of a SA. I made the terrible discovery in 2009, after 11 yrs of marriage, and I am still as raw as I was the day after I found everything. I have found some consolation in this blog. Mostly, it validates everything I feel. Your post about iPhones really hit home with me. Such a simple thing can cause the wife of a SA so very much stress. I hope you and baby are well. I was pregnant with our 3rd child when I made my discovery. I know some of the struggles you are probably facing now with the new baby. Good luck to you, and I can't wait to read more of your blogs when you can find time to write again.
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