Wednesday, April 18, 2012

I still exist

Hi There blog. I love you. I really do. You are the one thing that has helped me process through  Husband's recovery. You have always been there for me and never let me down, and still continue to be here for me after months of not posting. And yet I neglect you. It's not you. It's me. And the new man in my life. He takes up all my time. I have to tell you that he's much, much younger than you, and has been keeping me up all hours of the night. Not only am I the center of his universe, not only does he love me more than he loves anyone one else in the world, but he's totally obsessed with my boobs. He also loves to cuddle and when he looks into my eyes, I feel like everything is right with the world. I never thought that I could love anyone as much as I love him.  Don't feel bad. I'm still here and I still care about you as much as ever... But I'm just not as into you anymore. You don't consume my life and my thoughts like you once did.  There's someone who is more important in my world. Oh I'll check in when I can. I really will. You stick around and wait for me, because I still NEED you. I do. And when the man in my life becomes less enchanted with me (in 13 years or so) I will really need you. But for now, please be satisfied with my periodic check-ins and know that I am here and I still love you.

kisses,

Laney.